Dustin did get a new job though! That was actually the reason he wasn't able to go to New York with me. The blessings of the job, however, were more than worth it to miss the trip. Full time, benefits, higher pay, and a regular schedule has made it so I actually see Dustin more than an hour or two each day. More time spent together is definitely great.
We've had four appliances break in the past couple of weeks. Our t.v., microwave, rice cooker, and our electric skillet. We replaced the t.v. first, which I guess says something about our priorities? But to be fair, the t.v. happened first. The obnoxious thing is that none of them should've broken. But alas, an oven and stove top work just fine.
The other night I was a little frustrated and sad. About which I don't feel like telling you, only because in writing it will sound super pathetic. Just trust me when I say Dustin let me cry on him for a bit. And as I cried out my frustration, the thought was spoken that sometimes I feel like Utah is not the right place for me. Well, let me clarify-- I never truly felt like Utah was the right place for me, but sometimes I feel that much more strongly. Sure, it's a great place with many beautiful places, but I've never felt like it was my true home. The only reason Dustin ended up in Utah was for his meat cutting school, and before we met his plan was to move away after he was finished. Obviously that changed.
I'm okay living here now. I absolutely love my job, and the thing that keeps me from upping and leaving is definitely all my friends. When I think about the long run, though, I long to be elsewhere. Not to run away, but to find the place that is truly my home. Dustin and I have talked about moving to a number of places: Alaska, Washington, Canada, Iceland... all places we would both love (coincidentally, all coldish places). Personally, I'd love Canada only because I'd love to be the American version of a Canadian-- wearing knit sweaters with giant maple leaves on them and leggings with hockey sticks, and I would celebrate Canada Day with too far too much enthusiasm. Dustin would wear a Bruins shirt and meet some of his Canadian metal bands. And Iceland? It's freaking Iceland. I'm obsessed with that place.
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| Interstellar was filmed in Iceland. Gorgeous! |
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| Iceland again. |
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Sometimes when I think about moving it frightens me because it would be venturing into the unknown. But it would be Dustin and I, moving together to a new adventure. And we both love adventures!
I don't hate Utah, in fact I quite love many things about it. I've just never felt truly at home here.
